Silent Conversations

Monday, May 14, 2007

Journey of Life

I was here yesterday. I’m here today. And I’m worried I will stay here all through my life. All I do is sit here and wonder what the purpose of my life is. Why am I here? What am I supposed to do? To stay here forever, I would happily do if only that is what I’m expected to do. But that is not what I was sent here for. How do I find out the purpose of my life? One thing is certain – I’m not going to do anything useful sitting here and just thinking.

Two options lie in front of me – to stay in my comfort zone, enjoy life and die without leaving a mark; or take a chance, leave my comfort zone and explore the new paths and search for the meaning of my life. It’s hard to choose you see, coz choosing one means leaving the other forever. And it’s harder when what is to be left means so much and is very dear to you. I pick up the harder choice – a tough one but only this seems right to me. I bid farewell to my family and friends and step out of my comfort zone.

Where do I go now? It’s the same question I had asked myself several times before. But now the situation is different. Finding an answer was not mandatory earlier but now it is. This is both the beauty and challenge of taking the risk and facing the unknown. Lost in thoughts I follow the invisible force that is taking me far away from my home.

I continue my journey – stopping here and there in between; sometimes admiring the beauty of nature, sometimes protecting someone from sun or rain and sometimes helping someone cross the river. This is turning out to be a very interesting journey. Darkness surrounds the place and moon comes out of her hiding.

I enter a park. It is a big park but not many people around. There is the watchman near the entrance talking to the person who is making his way out of the park. Here a mother is having a tough time explaining her kids that it is time to leave. There is an old couple walking near the fountain holding each other’s hands. Then there is this young girl sitting on the bench. Not wanting to disturb the mother and the couple, I move towards the girl.

For a moment, I doubt whether she is one of those beautiful statues in the park. She is staring at the tree in front of her. She looks sad. Her face looks as though she has been crying for days together. Her eyes are full of tears waiting to fool the guarding eyelids and touch her cheeks. I wave at her but she is not noticing me. I jump up and down, go around her like crazy but she is so much lost in thought that nothing gets registered in her mind.

The first drop of tear escapes her careful eyelids and falls on her cheek. I’m feeling sad. I don’t want her to cry. Not knowing what else to do, I raise, touch her cheeks and dry away the tears. Surprised she takes me in her hand and stares at me for one long minute. Then I see her lips slowly curving and yes she is smiling at me now!!

I’m feeling at the top of the world..!! Purpose of my life…yes I understand the purpose of my life now…I was sent here so that I could understand and ease the pain of someone and make them smile through their tears. Being a reason for a smile gives the greatest happiness and a sense of satisfaction that nothing else can match. This is a universal truth that applies not only to me – a small leaf that fell from the tree to start its journey along with the wind, but also to everyone out there under the sun. I continue my journey happily to bring more smiles on my way.

Posted by sugi :: 3:33 PM :: 2 comments